Selena Gomez revealed her emotional struggles following her recent wedding to music producer Benny Blanco. During the Fortune’s Most Powerful Women conference on October 15, 2025, the actress shared that moments of joy often bring her anxiety about potential loss. This conflict surfaced after her marriage, where she found herself in tears, fearing she could “die the next day.”
In a candid discussion, Gomez expressed that her happiness is often overshadowed by the fear that it could vanish at any moment. “I got married and then I was sobbing because I was like, ‘I’m gonna die the next day,’” she stated. This emotional response reflects a larger internal struggle, where she feels “wrapped up” in fears instead of fully embracing celebratory moments.
Gomez’s reflections came after journalist Ellie Austin informed her that her beauty brand, Rare Beauty, is valued at over $2 billion. Despite her professional success, the 33-year-old singer and actress conveyed a sense of unworthiness, stating, “I don’t feel like I deserve to be in the room at the conference.” She explained her mindset: “This is how I work personally, but something great happens in my life, I expect something bad to happen.”
Gomez emphasized her inclination to worry about future uncertainties instead of enjoying current achievements. “Instead of being present and saying, ‘Okay, wow, we’ve done a great thing,’ I’m always thinking, ‘Okay, but this could all go away tomorrow, so how can I make sure that doesn’t happen?’” This insight into her mental state highlights the challenges faced by those in the public eye, where success can be accompanied by profound self-doubt.
In addition to discussing her wedding, Gomez also addressed her hopes for the future. She recently shared a heartfelt moment from the season two finale of Wizards Beyond Waverly Place, where her character, Alex Russo, learns she is a mother. Sharing a clip on her Instagram Story, Gomez expressed, “Alex Russo is a mommy. Hopefully one day that’ll be me.” This personal revelation indicates her desire for family, a dream she hopes to fulfill “one day.”
The emotional impact of this revelation was echoed by her co-star, Janice LeAnn Brown, who described their table read as a poignant experience. “It was very emotional, especially for me and her after the table read,” Brown said. The deep connection shared between the two actresses during this scene exemplifies the lasting influence of their early work together.
As Selena Gomez navigates her career and personal life, her honesty about her emotions resonates with many. Her journey illustrates the complex relationship between success and vulnerability, offering an authentic glimpse into the life of someone who, despite her achievements, grapples with the fear of loss.
